Beware of ink and paper?

Ever experience having a steady emotion then suddenly change its direction only to find out that you were having a circle of thoughts again of things that would give you an extreme narrow definition of what is happening today? Then, hatred enters one by one like a pop corn inside a heated microwave. I don't want to be a hater, seriously, but sometimes we could not help it but hate things in silent.

I hate when I want to do something that could nurture my skills and talents, and yet I can't do that simply because its luxurious nowadays.

I hate when I am surrounded with irresponsible creatures, claiming that there are passionate in this field but in reality they're doing nothing. Talents and skills might be at birth, but if it is not nurture, it will come to nothing! So don't feel great only because you are good at this or you are good at that. Remember, a talented person is nothing without the gift of extreme perseverance.

I hate being misjudged by other people because of true criticisms. Today, when you throw true judgments, people will think that you are arrogant no matter how nice the tone of your voice when you deliver it. People always want compliments and flattering phrases without knowing that sometimes true criticisms even if it is negative could make them a better person.

I hate the fact that I've been cursed many times with different people saying "wala kang mararating", "hindi ka aasenso" or anything that goes like that! Those lines still planted in my mind even if it was stated a couple of years ago. And that is the reason why I strive this hard.

I hate having loved ones who could not understand your personal legends in life. Sadly, people equated in their minds that education was invented to attain their luxurious life that they are all wishing for. You may call me hypocrite, but I would rather dream of becoming the poorest and ugliest woman in the world with a very high line of thinking than the wealthiest close minded woman in town who enjoys looking herself as a tasty object in the eyes of male species.

I hate being criticized behind your back by those people who once helped you out and inspired you in mastering your crafts in life. It's difficult.. to see, to feel and to hear things that could ruin the image of the person you respect so much. I was crest fallen upon hearing those things, and how I wish I just covered my ears so that I won’t feel this way. Who will tell this people that it is possible to pursue a dream in good faith? Honestly, I am not mad, it's quite disappointing. Swear, God knows that. I am keeping my mind open, so that I could understand those people.

Things will be alright, and I know this is a challenge. Probably, this could be the worst situation I am facing at present, but I don't have regret because this could be the first step in pursuing my personal legends and 100000000000 more steps await. And no one could ever discourage me from following the steps. People may hate me with this post. They could claim that they know who I'm pertaining to, as usual. So what?

I don't write to play safe! This is my outlet of expressing my emotions. I am not afraid to write simply because I am afraid that my points of view could result into something inconsistent in the future or I maybe published posts that I would regret soon because of the way I wrote it. I am not afraid of change! We live in the changing world, so accept it! As we continue growing, our thoughts and perceptions change. (Malamang tumatanda tayo e!) So why afraid to write if you know it's the product of your own reality?

Just like Paulo Coehlo said, "truth protects you". And I believe in him. :)