Saturday, December 8, 2007

I woke up feeling awesome around 5 a.m. in the morning. Water was extremely cold as if you put three blocks of ice in it. That makes my blood alive every MWF (Monday,Wednesday and Friday) morning. Looking at my bag that morning, it was fully loaded because of the clothes I'll be wearing after class.
I planned to watch a gig of a friend band naming August Mayhem at PLM (Pamantansan ng Lungsod ng Maynila). Looking at the venue, it was well prepared by the organizers of the event. It looked like a mini Amoranto Stadium. The sound system were well set and the lights were cool. August Mayhem rocked PLM. They were damn great that night. Swear! They looked really awesome especially when they started rocking out on stage. They looked cute with their hairs as it covered their faces while banging their heads out. We, as their friends supported them all the way that night. And they even gave their best for us.
After that we headed to Tatay Matyu's spot in Tondo. It was the very first time I'd been there. In the middle of our drinking session, my mouth kept on talking a lot in a maximum tone as if the one I was talking to was located in the next street. Emperador made me my cerebrum out of control once again. I started conversing with them in English. That's one sign of my drunkenness and that made my drinking mates shown their amazing English accents, too. LOL :))

I believe I am a real person when I'm drunk. 

I've been telling everything about me, even my deep dark secrets. :O And since I was badly drunk that night, the present secret that keeps on giving heaviness on my chest was spilled out from my mouth . Of course, Matyu, as my "tatay-tatayan" in the clique couldn't helped himself to comment on that issue. I could see disappointment in his eyes while telling me things that made me feel better.

It was really embarrassing in my part that it made me cry a bucketful of tears. I started to realize everything in that moment even though Emperador kept running through my artery.

So far, it was the greatest mistake I've ever done in my teen years.

I don't want to hurt other people because of my incompleteness. And I don't even want to hurt myself, too. I am not blaming anyone why I got into this mess. It was my choice and no one is to be blamed.

At the moment, I am starting to stick to the fact that if you've committed a mistake, and you know it, then, just stop it. 

Once is enough, twice is too much, thrice and fourth time is intentional.

So just like in my first ever post here, I'll say this once again.
Cheating is an ugly, nasty business. Happy people don't cheat and they know how to use the word CONTENTMENT and apply it in their own lives.


Perhaps, I am feeling incomplete because I am lack Centrum. Maybe, taking it is the answer, what do you think? :]